avery

i made him quiet.

first the quiet where i don't even want to describe it it's like nothing in the world holding avery's body and not recognising it as only avery when it's arched and he's lost and there is no noise.

and now he's asleep. i'm not saying that that's a sacred quiet, and i'm not saying that he never makes noise in his sleep, but the quiet when he looks at me before shutting his eyes for the night. it makes me quiet, too.

i love him